“The Price We Paid” is about the American Civil War in Missouri, and the human struggles that occurred during that great time of war. The war was very personal in Missouri, and neighbors fought neighbors and families were torn apart. This is their story...
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Isaac and Gabriel Claybourne rode their horses along the dirt path in silence. The brothers were volunteering to fight in the war. Both had been too young when the fighting broke out, but by now, both were eighteen and ready to fight. But they would not be fighting together; they were volunteering on opposite sides.
It was a tense situation at home before they left. Their father, Arthur Claybourne, was personally a Union man, while their mother sympathized with the Confederacy. The dinner the evening before was quiet and somber. Isaac and Gabriel had a younger sister, Mary, and she refused to see them at breakfast that morning out of grief. The family was torn apart by this war.
The road was overhung by a thick line of oak trees, and the afternoon sun was blocked partially by the branches. Gabriel opened his saddlebag and grabbed a piece of dried beef. He was about to offer some to Isaac, but Isaac was looking directly ahead, avoiding his brother’s glance. Gabriel began chewing on the beef, losing his appetite.
After a moment, Gabriel broke the silence.
“Isaac, if we’re going to…”
“Gabriel,” Isaac cut his brother off sharply. “I think that it would be best if we don’t speak to each other. We’ll travel together until we reach Morrisburg. Then, we go our separate ways.”
Gabriel bowed his head solemnly and put his food back into his pouch. Isaac was never much of a talker anyway, but today, he seemed even more hostile. The brothers had always taken different paths in areas of interest; at school, Gabriel always loved playing stickball than studying, but Isaac was a diligent student.
They continued to ride without talking to each other, choosing instead to look at the road ahead of them.
Isaac mulled over his thoughts about the morning, and about the last several months. News about the war had trickled in from the East, giving an overall impression of the Confederacy being on the ascension. Kentucky was a border state, and was still officially part of the Union, but there were still many slaveholding families who had Southern sympathies. The Claybournes lived next to several households that supported the rebellion, and, although relations in the community were still amiable, there was some conflict on the issue of the war.
Some considerable commotion was caused when, some three months earlier, a Confederate cavalry patrol rode into the area and stole horses from a local ranch. A militia force was formed and drove away the horsemen, but they left in their wake a feeling of intense disruption. The war had finally come to Kentucky, even if it had been a small patrol coming into their county.
Arthur Claybourne had been open with his Northern loyalties and had championed the formation of a Kentucky volunteer company to march north and join the Union army. Many had answered the call, but still others scorned the action. Arthur was unable to join them on account of his bad leg, injured in a riding accident some years previous. The company rode away and reported to the local Federal forces.
Isaac had never thought to join the Army until his father mentioned raising the company. Isaac had been so preoccupied with his studies that he had never considered the possibility of anything other science and philosophy. Gabriel, on the other hand, had talked of nothing but enlisting. Isaac’s brother took on from his father, while Isaac was the spitting image of his mother, and had a similar temperament as well. Louisa Claybourne was a quiet and thoughtful woman, and she had married Arthur out of love and against the wishes of her family. Together, they moved from Arthur’s home in Ohio to Kentucky, and built a home in the community where they presently lived.
Louisa disliked slavery and thought it an injustice, but she sympathized with the fight for self-determination of the state. While Arthus maintained that the Union must be preserved and that Lincoln could save the country, Louisa believed that the states should decide their own fate. Whatever their disagreements, Arthur and Louisa loved each other, and they taught their family to settle their differences. Mary, their only daughter, never spoke of the war or politics, and had shouted at the brothers the evening before they left for tearing the family apart. Mary was only fifteen, but she was a keen observer and understood the war, even if she didn’t show it.
Isaac was snapped out of his reverie by the whinnying of his horse. He glanced at Gabriel, whose face was expressionless. Isaac found this amusing, as Gabriel was the most lively member of the family by far. Gabriel could always find a joke in anything, no matter how serious or appropriate to do so. Nevertheless, Gabriel’s intentions of joining the rebellion was quite serious and well thought out. Gabriel had always supported states rights, and when secession was declared in many of the Southern states, he felt that it was his duty to do his part in the war.
The silence continued until the brother reached a fork in the road. A sign indicated that Jefferson City was to the left, and that St Joseph was to the right. Isaac and Gabriel both looked at each other; this is where their paths diverged.
Gabriel opened his mouth to say something, but closed it a few seconds later. He couldn’t think of anything to say. Chances are that the brothers would never see each other until after the war; maybe, heaven forbid, never again. Isaac stared at his brother, and for only a moment, Gabriel saw his brother’s cold facade break, revealing a look of sadness. It was immediately replaced by an even harder look.
“Well, I suppose this is goodbye then. Good luck, Gabriel. Godspeed.”
Isaac’s words rang in Gabriel’s ears for along time. Isaac, without another word, reined his horse in front of Gabriel and began to ride down the right fork. Gabriel just watched his brother go, unable to say anything in reply. Finally, words came to him.
“God go with you, Isaac.”
Isaac turned around in his saddle, and Gabriel could see his brother nod once. Then, Isaac turned around and kept riding until he was out of sight.
Gabriel exhaled slowly, holding back tears of emotion. After what seemed like an eternity, Gabriel guided his horse to the left fork and continued riding down the dirt path.